One day I bought access to an online TV network offering spiritual content. Eventually I came across "Interviews with ED" created by Reuben Langdom. That is when I met for the first time Roxanne Swainhart, Nora Herold, Wendy Kennedy and many others. I had heard about channeling before as I visited a Shaman living and teaching in Ibiza. But I was at the time very confused about it and thought that it required extraordinary abilities. After that I read Jane Roberts' Seth Material. My mind blew and I soon considered these books as the most important ones ever written.
I decided to follow my instinct and contact these people that were fascinating me and explore what I had been told I was, but I wasn't seeing any of that extraordinary in me.
When I was 4 years old an alien appeared in my room. I never talked about it with anyone, though I never doubted the reality of that encounter. Extraterrestrial life exist? Yes, I met it.
As a child, my neighbour was a healer, she could heal by using her hands. One day as we were out of town for a sports camp, I hit my leg against a stone at the level of the bone leaving me with a huge hematoma. She spent the evening using her hands on my leg and in the morning I was already running.
I have been having premonitions, dreams, feelings... I was having many experiences that were opening my mind to the extraordinary.
I was also as lost as everyone else. My childhood has left me with a lot of self hate and destructive behaviour. For years I have fought to find some normality and strength in myself and above all self love that I was not finding in my family or even feeling that I deserved it.
I had questions, things I couldn't understand, I felt I was, but couldn't actually be. It's like when you're told that you have a destiny to fulfil and the harder you try, you feel you keep failing at it. It's devastating.
I asked the question: "I have been told I am this, but I really do not feel it". I was told "You have the potential of becoming. But you're not there yet".
That was my turning point. I thought: "I have the potential of becoming a light bearer, to enlighten myself, but I do not have to. It's a choice, my choice, it hasn't been decided as a final destination, it has been offered as a potential for me to explore".
I chose. The light.
A path of self discovery and realization. First answering the biggest and most important question: what am I? A creator, god. God is inside of us, not outside.
Some years ago I discovered the passion of travelling. The most important journey I made is the one bringing me to Cambodia. I met HH Prince Sisowath Ravivaddhana Monipong and we felt a strong connection. It's during my first trip to Siem Reap, that I had the first strong connection with a past life. We were visiting Ankor, the ancient capital city of the Khmer empire, where hundreds of temples were built (like Angkor Wat). At the end of one day, at sundown, we went to visit Pré Rup, the temple from which the view of sundown is the best. As I set foot on top of the temple I felt like an energy overtaking me, guiding my steps around the temple. I instantly knew: this is my temple. Since that time, I have encountered many other selves, from... all over the place.
Finally I discovered what being a light bearer means: offering your light, and that's all. I was now aware of my abilities as a healer, medium, channeler,... I started using the crystal bowls and discovered a new world. I found the courage to believe in myself and validate the voices in my head as coming from the infinite inside and not being only me. That gave myself the allowance to channel.
I gave myself the opportunity to take a journey of self exploration, self discovery and I found myself, the creator that has always been me, as I've always been them. I have found my light and can now share it. I have found wonderful beings that have given me the right pushes, words, suggestions.
I have discovered I AM.
And now I can offer my light.